Energy is an expression of life
It's not for me to say, why I have an impusle or why at a given moment I feel a need to express
Energy in its creation has an end
My life is made up of almost infinite creations of energy which had a beginning and ultimately end
This is the the circle of life, this is the path of oneness to expression and back to oneness
Emotions are a very important part of my life - they need expression and transparency
Otherwise, life becomes dull, it becomes a shadow of what wants to be expressed
My life becomes another movement to protect myself from the impulse manifesting within me
This protection often is hard or distracting, its root is manifest as another creation of the first which was silenced out of fear
Hiding, Hiding, Hiding
Running, Running Running
Frozen, Frozen, Frozen
To speak and act as I feel is not small act
"(In fact - It is actually the highest form of worship - but that's for another post)"
Even complaining, blaming and condemning is a shield of armour
So much of life is spent talking, organizing and forming community around secondary expressions
When the initial impulse can be expressed, I do not need anything else
I do not want, do not look, do not seek - I feel at peace, I feel at home
Home is where I can find rest and peace within myself
Home is when I have had a long day of being able to express myself authentically
Actions are needed in this world, fundamental to it
And at the same time, emotions clear the debris from the road, give a clear viewpoint
From which to take these vital actions
I wish I could say I was good at expressing my emotions and only my emotions in my relationships
I am not. I have expressed my emotions as a fact, a news headline, a blaring fog horn .. all secondary
And when I was able to express them, they were as a child and therefore mothered
It's a tricky business. I do not like it. I wish there was a better way.
Maybe I can create it
From start to finish
From Oneness and then back to Oneness
and Home