There is no place for fear
there is no place to hear
the wailing calls of my inner child who cannot fathom how to share or connect
There is no place for fear
alchemy turned fright into distractions, avoidance and contempt for one another
a surreal place of fantasy megaland living my life as a vaudville stage show
There is no place for fear
bottled up and churning with reflections of guilt for any action which doesn't meet my pain
but merely takes me further away from it
There is no place for fear
frozen at my core, stuck in a timelessness of shock and disillusion
caught in a temporal moment of inner helpless oneness
There is no place for fear
where lingering stagnacy sees other peoples triumphs and success as an even greater ache
having the need to purge it, refute it and ultimately make it smaller to not feel even worse
There is no place for fear
the moral and societal beliefs anchored in my mind as concrete walls, unmoveable
underground passages dug beneath it all finding movement only in the the darkness
There is no place for fear
two sides of a relation, imprisoned in their own no man's land unable to climb over the barbed wire fence
searching, hiding, crouching and forever on alert with hairs standing tall on the back of my neck
There is no place for fear
Intuitional survival constantly seeking comfort not from the pain of what is
but from the pain and agony of any no possibility to relate and make a meaningful change
There is no place for fear
seeking refuge in our own egoistic reflections as the only source of reflection and validation
locked in narcicism and control not out of want but because there is no other escape from this cold damp bunker
There is no place for fear
feelings numb to the core - polarity in pleasure or pain is the body's cocaine
no middle ground, no gray, only black and white, dark or dissociated, oblivious or naive
There is no place for fear
generations imprinted with prison numbers fading only slightly with each new birth
lying dormant, waiting for the call to awaken
There is no place for fear
to stand and look it , eye to eye, face to face, presence to presence
blinding lights of shame piercing my senses sending me even deeper into the unknown forest
There is no place for fear
matryoshka dolls growing larger, layer by layer, covering up any possibility to be seen or heard
replaced with beautiful masks of bedtime stories and disney movie endings
There is no place for fear
my voice swallowed by my belly, bubbling in a witches pot of curses and evil spells
driving me, tempting me, pushing me, leading me like a puppet string to limb, string to limb
There is no place for fear
duty , doing and dogma running like clock-like gears in perpetual motion
producing consumer needs, country's GDP and global economies
There is no place for fear
to touch ground, to place hands on the earth realizing we are all walking trees
rooted in soil and bedrock, born from seeds exposed to moisture and the great Light
There is no place for fear
for saddness, for trust, for humility, for vulnerability, for acceptance, for embrace
I need permission for these , to allow te shadows to dissolve in the light
There is no place for fear
for acknowledgement, for attention and interest - to give it a chair in the spotlight to speak
raising the curtains and hushing the crowd until even a dropped needle can be heard
There is the no place for fear
to be heard in the silence of compassion and love with all no fault, no accusation
no judgement, no comparison, no fix-it, no denial, no criticism
There is no place for fear
because we all live in it, move by it and are wired endlessly to it
There is no escaping fear nor creating a fish sized story from it
Fear can only be met by love and this love is seeing fear for what it is - in each and every one of us
Seeing life as it is - for what it is, is love
And in this love - in this resonance of self recognition a sad and aching heart appears