It doesn't come
I mean something comes but not "It"
Anxiety starts in the heart and flutters outward like a peacock shedding off recent rainfall
The well of my stomach. Why is it always so deep and black
My ringing ears or head or brain - its noticable now
The bottoms of my feet tingle - slowly roasting to perfection
And my breath Quick IN and Ouuuuuuuuuuuut.
Quick IN. And Ouuuuuuuuuuuut
My mind is blank except when its not because the attic door has popped open
That damn attic door... no matter how many combinations of pills, drink, food, exercise, media shows or music I stack on top ... poof - I look away and ... open
The black cavernous grotto feels damp and I could swear I hear the drip drip drip echoing with that all too familiar musty smell
Breathe Breathe Breathe
Feel Feel Feel
Close Close Close
Aaah - this is your captain speaking, currently we have no information as to when we will be given clearance to taxi and take flight - until then we are in a
Holding Pattern
Please continue to enjoy all the amenities available to you on the lower and upper decks
Thank you
Lost.